The past few months have been really rough on our family, and it has been mainly caused by me. Dealing with Eric losing his job, a miscarriage, my grandfather's death and my father forgetting my birthday completely brought out a lot of issues I had never dealt with. I went into a very depressed state where Eric and I were questioning me seeing a doctor about it.
That was when I started to figure thing out on my own. I have always compared my worst self to everyone's best. I always felt not good enough. I would set such high expectations for myself that hardly anyone could reach. Through that past few months I have been slowly learning a lot of stuff about myself and letting things go.
Looking back on these few months it makes sense for why Eric didn't have a job. He needed to be home so I could go through this. I have grown to love myself for once! A few weeks ago we went to the temple and I remember hearing all of the blessing that are promised and for once I felt I am one of those people that are talked about. Before I felt they were talking about everyone else.
I also had a hard time with thinking that I had no great talents and that the ones I did have were just ok. I have come to realize I have a very big talent and I have a whole paragraph just for it in my blessing. That is strength. And I am fine with having "ok" talents too because I am a well rounded person.
I figured I should share this because sometimes on blogs it is easy to say things are fine when things are not. Oh and Eric starts his co-op (internship) on Tuesday!
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